Spun Out

im starting to spin out on this deployment in a BIG way. its a couple different things all working in different ways but the effects are catastrophic. i gotta level my head right fucking now. i gotta pull myself together. im doing shit in a place where i can’t afford to get swamped down in my own bullshit. fuck this fucking shit. i gotta get fucking crazy and power through this shit. i can do it. fuck yes i can. sometimes its easier said than... Read More

Other Shoe to Drop

nothing in my life has ever been easy. it always seems like right when things start going my way the bottom falls out in one way or another. anything worth having is worth fighting for. im having some pretty tough times but im trying to keep my head up. i think it will all work out but sometimes shit just hurts and sucks and confuses the hell out of me. im just gonna keep doing the right thing, keep true to my values, true to myself and hope that... Read More

Gin and Jews

Well happy fucking new year! I already have a sneaking suspicion that this year is gonna be the best year ever, god knows it couldn’t be any worse than last year. The good news is that I rang in the new year as hard as a motherfucker, bad news is that it took a whole day of playing Medal of Honor 3 with all my bro’s on an Xbox360 to recover. Did anyone out there know that the bars here in Israel don’t close until… well ever!?!?!?... Read More

The Valley of the Shadow of Death (All Hail Moloch!)

Today marks my first actual experience with ancient evil. It was a stormy day, the first storm we’ve seen here. It was on Shabbat and while all the devout jews were trying not to anger their god I ventured out in search of biblical evil. After doing some reading I decided to explore what one guide book called ‘the valley of the shadow of death’. “Encircling the foot of Mount Zion is the Hinnom Valley, called Gehenna (meaning... Read More

I’ve Been Cursed by a Jew Witch!?

I didn’t really believe in this shit until lately, but recent events have proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that… I’VE BEEN CURSED BY A JEW WITCH! Sounds like something out of Borat, but its fucking true. This old jew hag put her filthy jew curse on me and now my life is a wreck! It all started when I was just walking through the old city in Jerusalem. I was poking my head into shops, snapping pix of ancient shit, appriciating the... Read More

Hello Hitler

Another deployment – another country – another case of the shits… rftt original numbered and signed print ancient scrap book jfk slain newspaper good luck charm bug boot remover Israel – fuck.  I finally got the whole goddamn ‘road to ruin’ series posted up here and I don’t even have the internet to upload it. THis truly is a fucking outrage. It took me like 2 holidays... Read More

Metamorphosis

I made my escape after 5 hardcore days of my VA Beach friends trying to give me liver cancer and even though every part of me just wanted to get back on the road I was torn.  It was hard to say goodbye to the friends and places.  Memory is a dirty liar when it comes to things like this, and for some reason even though I was haunted by the experiences of a life that was gone, there was a part of me that didn’t want to leave.  I met Colin on my... Read More

Necropolis

I step off the death flight still in a daze from the pills and boredom and immediately throw my kit into my rental minivan (I got a free upgrade so just shut the fuck up right now).  Power through a three hour drive from DC to VA Beach for the first Halloween I’ve spent stateside for as long as I can remember.  My brain is having trouble adjusting.  Maybe it’s the Ambiens, maybe culture shock, but everything starts to seem weird.  And not... Read More

War Wacky

Time was drawing close for me to get out of Iraq (hopefully for the last time).  Every time I’m about to get the fuck out of this place my tolerance for bullshit goes way down.  This is lousy because I don’t have patience for anything, but at the same time all madness of the place seems to resonate more vibrantly in my mind giving me pause to reflect on truly how fucked up this situation really is.  It all started about 2 weeks out.  Two short... Read More

End of the Line

I’m finally back, god it feels good. The trip home was an insane rollercoaster. I have a lot of notes on my final days in iraq as well as the road trip and everything else. The nov 1 post was actually a october one that i never got a chance to upload. hopefully that will tide peeps over until i get the next big article put up… little prelude here.. this one is crazy… fucking crazy. I kind of went all the way and then some. Regardless,... Read More